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So I try, generally, to accept the idea that once I put things on the internet, they are on the internet and free to be made merry with by one and all. Therefore, it is my opinion that you do not REQUIRE my permission to:

--remix my work
--podfic my work
--make vids of my fanfic
--show my vids in a vidshow
--link my work, to anyone you reasonably think would appreciate it
--write fanfic of my fanfic
--draw fanart for my fanfic
--or any other permutation of fannish inspiration you can think of.

But if you want my permission, you have it. Also, if I've managed to lock something you wanted to share, poke me about it, that's generally accidental, I will usually unlock.

I would like to hear about if you are using or remixing or etcing my work! That is pretty exciting for me. Also, I would like to be credited (except on those rare occasions--I can think of two--where I have posted work with the specific request *not* to be associated with it).

See also: my braintwin's thoughts on this matter.

So anyway: you don't have to ask to play in my sandbox, but the answer's always yes.

Current Mood: hopeful

ETA: For more recent work, see

houseoftorres. For as complete a listing as exists in one place, check AO3.

27 October 2008: Industrial Strength Tranquilizer, Eureka vid to the Austin Lounge Lizards. Wedding present for

niqaeli. Premiered at

vidukon 2008. 24.1MB avi. Link updated 21 March 2019.

18 August 2008: Highway Café of the Damned, Stargate SG-1 vid to the Austin Lounge Lizards. Co-vidded with

niqaeli. Premiered at

vividcon 2008. 24.6MB avi. Link updated 21 March 2019.

13 August 2007: Tokyo Sling: Remix, Weiß Kreuz vid to Smashmouth's Waste for

keelieinblack and the

vividcon 2007 Auction. 26.5MB avi. Link updated 21 March 2019.

4 September 2006: Miracle and Wonder, Star Wars original trilogy to Paul Simon's Boy in the Bubble. Blind remaster of baby's first vid. Wedding present for the high school best friend. 27.1MB avi. Link updated 21 March 2019.

16 August 2004: Change, Fight Club to the Getaway People. For

cadetdru. Premiered at

vividcon 2004. 30MB avi. ~~There is also Commentary, 22mb mov, as of Nov 07.~~ That appears to be lost to the vagaries of the internet. Link to vid updated 21 March 2019.

16 August 2004: Shot in the Head, Touching Evil (US) to David Bowie's Seven Years in Tibet. Mostly done because the source was damn pretty. Premiered at

vividcon '04. 13.5MB avi. Link updated 21 March 2019.

27 May 2003: Rain, Farscape to Paul McCartney's Mamunia. A serendipitous shift in the weather. For

ysobel. 8.4MB avi. Link updated 14 May 2019

11 March 2003: American Tune, Andromeda (the downfall of Rhade) to Paul Simon. My least favorite of my own vids, but I know that it works for some people, so. 30.8MB avi. Link updated 21 March 2019.

17 February 2003: I Want You, Witchblade (Irons's obsession with Pez and the blade) to Elvis Costello. For

boniblithe. 54.5MB avi because it is an effing six and a half minute vid, but I have to say, this encode gets the luminosity to viewable levels. Link updated 9 May 2019.

15 November 2002: Kryptonite Andromeda (Dylan/Rhade) to Three Doors Down. First vid that saw web (remastered for the bits that weren't out on DVD yet originally). Premiered at

vividcon '04. 30.5MB avi. Link updated 21 March 2019.

Current Mood: artistic

all evidence to the contrary i am not dead yet. I know a couple of people dropped me in their annual prune of inactive journals so I figured i would say that much even if I don't have the energy for a longer entry right now. *waves*

made a status update about my personal life, one bit was about how I've watched Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood 2.5 times in as many months. brought the fannish blathering to a public post.

FMA/B is currently my primary fandom! I've been reading a ton of fic--mostly Roy/Ed, although I also read some Riza/Roy when it came up in the 'bottom Roy' tag because lolyes. I have two main plotbunnies I want to write--one is a specific idea about Roy being FTM and getting an automail dick (at Ed's urging, because Ed is an automail evangelist) with lots of headcanons about how automail works and is installed. The other is like, the kitchen sink plotbunny, where Roy is extremely poly and the polycule includes almost everyone in the conspiracy to make him Fuhrer, and also Roy semi-accidentally catches Hughes's soul in the phone system and Ed helps him grow a body to put it in, and also Ed is working through being grey-ace and agender and trying to have a relationship with Roy while Roy is trying to very gently ask him what he even wants, because so many mixed signals. The automail dick plotbunny is pretty firmly in the FMAB continuity but I love FMA '03 a LOT and have been working with a frankencanon for the kitchen sink story (fitting? the canon is also a kitchen sink?).

Features of the frankencanon: ( fairly extensive spoilers for both? or at least assumption you know the spoilers for both? )

I also have a couple of vid bunnies! one is the resurrected vid bunny I had back in 2005 about Roy after Hughes's death, to Green Day's Holiday, which could easily work to either canon. or both. or i might *yet* make a constructed reality AU vid about Roy's attempt at human transmutation. The second is a crossroads deal with the devil song that I wanted to vid about how Ed ends up working with all these people who were or should have been enemies on Promised Day, up to and including the Thing in the Gate itself. I started listening to the band that wrote the song a fair amount and now I'm gravitating to vidding a different song of theirs, called Hangman (although it contains some.... possibly Latin, possibly gibberish parts that the band's fandom's translation of makes little to no sense, which might make it hard). But it's such a good atmospheric song for the epic tragedy of it all.

I got obsessed with Murderbot back in May when the new novel came out (some relevant tumblr posts, because I've been posting more there: exploding with feelings about ART and Murderbot and how they misunderstand each other, and a conversation about usage of names and pronouns by artificial intelligences in Murderbot); I want to vid it because of course any book I love I'm like "I want to vid this now lack of video source be damned." Anyway I have a huge collection of space/robot/cyborg/AI movies and shows I've been watching with an eye to collecting material for a Murderbot vid.

Gravity: tbh i spent a good 2/3 of this movie pondering what heist the Ocean siblings were trying to pull in space. also i am SO DEEPLY OVER "woman takes off space suit, wanders around in tank top and underwear." what a weird pointlessly objectifying trope. (Is it older than Alien? I mean, I remember it very vividly from Alien.) Also she's supposed to be wearing NASA space suit and like, that has specialized temperature-controlling full-body long underwear under it. Yes, this movie did make me spite research astronaut underwear. Also, did you know it takes like 45 minutes to get a spacesuit on, with help, it's practically impossible to get one on without help, so that scene where she goes outside in time for the space debris shower in under 7 minutes is just a bit beyond credulity.

Ad Astra: needs more Ruth Negga. There was a bit when she had just been introduced and some lackey is like "you can go now we're talking about things above your clearance level" and i was just like excuse you??? you're not even credited??? Parts of this were just headdesk. Like Brad Pitt's character (how did Rusty get separated from Danny and Debbie anyway? poor guy) sneaks onto a mission he's been banned from and in the first five minutes manages to ACCIDENTALLY kill everyone onboard. I was just like. Wow. I cannot make myself care about you. I had a really hard time figuring out when this was supposed to be set, and I finally decided it occurred approximately in the present but in an alternate timeline where basically every space probe or robot we sent out was actually humans/colonization. Mars was colonized when we sent Curiosity and Sojourner and Spirit and so on. The mission Brad Pitt's dad was on? Basically Voyager.

Edge of Tomorrow: funnily enough I didn't know about the time travel/loop element of this and was highly entertained! Also there is a chance I will end up casting Murderbot as the back of Tom Cruise's head because he's been in a fair amount of high-budget schlock and likes to do stunts that would be more readily attributable to someone with construct strength and speed.

Europa Report: I'd already seen this but decided to rewatch it, and I freaking love this movie, highly recommend if you've never seen it. It's a faux documentary of a mission sent to Europa. They encounter a lot of technical difficulties (parts of it are kind of space horror, a lot of characters die) but they are incredibly dedicated to scientific advancement and learning new thing and have this joy about finding life on another planet/moon.

Tau: Netflix movie wherein a dude is kidnapping like homeless people and sex workers (your basic serial killer move of going for the disposable people) so he can map their brains to make AI. There's a back of the neck glowing implant that's useful to my purposes. The kidnap victims stage an escape and most of them get killed (including the black guy, OH MY GOD) so the rest of the movie is a weird power play thing between Scientist Kidnapper and Attractive Blonde Girl. Tau is the name of an AI the guy already built, but finds imperfect, so it's limited to running his house and isn't allowed access to information. Scientist Kidnapper routinely puts Tau in charge of his prisoner so of course she bonds with Tau and gets it to help her in exchange for telling it about the world outside the house and looking up answers to things it wants to know and isn't allowed to read for itself. Ends in satisfying explosions.

Falling Skies: post-apocalyptic series about a semi-official militia of survivors of an alien invasion, starring Noah Wyle as scruffy hot dad protagonist. I'm about 2 seasons in (they're short seasons) and it's actually a lot more frequently about humans fighting amongst themselves than about humans vs. aliens. The mechs might be useful to me (combat bots?) so I keep skimming for big battles. The aliens enslave teenagers with a biotech slug they attach to their spines; unfortunately it is waaaay too big and organic looking to work for what I need, although the kids who have been freed and just have spikes sticking out of their backs might be useful to me. I have a complaint about an antagonist from like the second episode--the plot of that episode was a scout team gets caught by a post-apocalyptic gang of assholes who are like "society's over let's just rape and kill our way to the end" and I was like, oh no, they cast the leader of the gang too pretty, they're gonna keep him aren't they, and sure enough IMDB says he's in 48/50 episodes. I keep being like GOD why do they think they can make the murdering racist rapist a likeable character? And then I remind myself that I do know of post apocalyptic fiction where the good guys just don't put up with that shit: in Meg Elison's Road to Nowhere series, of which I've read Book of the Unnamed Midwife and Book of Etta, there's a lot of post-apocalyptic rape gang bullshit, but the town of Nowhere basically just decided they weren't having it. When people come to trade and offer to sell them their rape slaves, Nowhere executes the rapists and frees the slaves. People who responded to the apocalypse by enslaving and raping other people don't get any passes, they just get dead. So sometimes I watch Falling Skies and think to myself how if the pretty gang leader had showed up in those books, he'd just be dead. "well he saved so and so's life" he's a rapist, shoot him in the head. "he can cook!" don't care he's a rapist kill him. no excuses.

Ordinarily this lot would go directly to Goodwill and that was my plan before everything got shut down but we've had this box sitting in our room for a month and a half now and

echan asked me to do something with it, so here's a handful of stuff that if you want it, I will send it to you for the cost of shipping + $1-5 per item, whatever we agree is reasonable. Obvs you should be careful with incoming packages and wash all clothes you order online, but no one in our household has been sick, if you are concerned about that.

Clothing (of various adult sizes, because

echan and I are shaped very differently):

Ododos brand leggings, size US 2XL (per their size chart, waist 38"), in a black-with-white streak pattern. polyester/spandex, secret pocket. New enough to still have the tag on.

Ododos brand yoga pants, size US L (per their size chart, waist 32"), in a black-with-white streak pattern. polyester/spandex, secret pocket.

Amazing Sports brand leggings, no size info on label, waist about 35" unstretched, space/constellation/nebula pattern. polyester/spandex.

champion knit workout pants, size M, waist about 32" unstretched. Black with grey edging. Cotton/spandex.

unlabelled knit capri length workout pants, appear to match the champion ones above. in black with grey and light green edging. waist about 32" unstretched. Pockets.

Star Wars pajama bottoms, size large, waist about 30" unstretched. patterned with faces of Chewbacca, Yoda, a stormtrooper and Darth Vader on a navy background. 100% cotton.

Merona brand polo t-shirt, size small, in wide horizontal black and grey stripes. 100% cotton.

champion reversible racerback workout bra, black and grey. Small.

champion reversible racerback workout bra, black and abstract blue scale. small.

lane bryant/livi brand workout bra, size 26. lavender blue nylon/spandex. Wore a few times, has been washed.

lane bryant/cacique brand bras, "lightly lined t-shirt no-wire" according to their label. Smooth, firm foam cups for shaping/support. Size 44H. Nylon/spandex/polyamide/elastane. Have several of these, wore them 1-2 times, have been washed. One each of the following colors:
--Navy blue
--cafe mocha (tan)
--pale blue with white stripes and lace
--darker grey-blue with white-green lace

Bags:

orange tote-style purse made out of recycled plastic. 17" wide, 13" deep. snap closure, brown interior fabric lining with zipper pocket on side.

the tiniest fanny pack you ever saw? a Nathan brand running belt: small blue zipper pouch on a stretch strap with a buckle.

Targus brand laptop bag, has been around and is a bit dusty. 18" x 14" x 5", multiple zippered compartments, shoulder strap. Black and grey.

Miscellaneous:

Exploding Kittens: A Card Game for People Who Are Into Kittens And Explosions and Laser Beams and Somtimes Goats. recommended for ages 7+, 2-5 players. Still in original shrinkwrap.

Booklet: Yamaha You and Your Motorcycle: Riding Tips, Motorcycle Skill Test Practice Guide. 81 pages.

USB to micro-USB cable (ie standard charging cable for many android etc devices). black, 4 ft long.

Please reply with your zip code so I can calculate shipping (I can send outside of US but it will probably cost more than you want to spend?) and which items you are requesting, for what $$ offer. Comments are screened.

people are ... following me today? is there like a meme or something?

(just confused because I hardly ever post and most of the times these days it's locked personal shit not public fannish shit)

hi? did you want to read about my locked personal shit? it's mostly school, depression, and meds?

i was, for a variety of reasons, in the general locale of a party tonight. I sat most of it out listening to an audiobook in the backroom, but at one point I came out to bring dirty dishes to the kitchen and got hugged and drawn into a small circle of drunk people for a few minutes. the friend who had hugged me wandered away, and I ended up talking to this guy who I guess was drunk enough that it was controversial opinion time, or else was just talking to two other guys in the kitchen with the subject boundaries guys draw amongst themselves and didn't register that a woman was present until I objected.

so this guy owns a gym/studio and instructs and performs in a sport where people routinely practice in tights, or other similarly form-fitting garments that would in other situations be construed as underwear. He was describing an incident where a woman instructor he knows at the gym he owns slapped his ass, and he said, "hashtag metoo!", apparently as a joke, and the woman got offended and no longer touches him. The point of this story was that he finds it IRONIC that women demand equality but don't think anything about objectifying men.

"You can't really joke about #MeToo," I said.

He proceeded to explain to me that it was a joke because he's very touchy-feely, a super huggy person, and was not at all actually bothered by her touching him, he just wanted to point out the hypocrisy. And she got OFFENDED, what was that about. Irony, right?

so like. look. i tried to meet him halfway. I responded to the way he'd first told the story. I suggested he had set a boundary, and she was no longer touching him, so she respected the boundary. "It's hard setting a boundary," I said.

He insisted he was not in fact bothered by being touched. He just wanted to point out how IRONIC it was that women in the gym could be waving around his junk like it was no big deal, but if he waved his hands around their boobs, it would blow up.

"Look," I said, "it doesn't sound like you want to wave your hands around their boobs, it sounds like you want a personal space bubble for yourself."

"I have a mom and sisters and i grew up in the midwest where everything is totally about white dudes and I understand that things have not been equal and are not equal now," he said. "I just want to point out the IRONY."

I tried to wander after my friend at this point, but couldn't catch up with her, so I gave up and retired back to the back room.

Here's the things I wish I'd said to him:

#MeToo is not JUST about someone slapping your ass. #MeToo is about being raped. Lesser inappropriate touching comes up in the context of, someone in a position of power did this to me, I don't know if he'll escalate, I don't know if he'll rape me, I don't know what I'll do if he does because position of power. I said you can't really joke about #MeToo because #MeToo is about rape. Do you understand why you can't joke about rape?

When this woman slapped your ass, was that typical of your touchy-feely huggy relationship with her? If yes: that's definitely why she got offended when you accused her of sexual assault. (If no, but you were being honest when you said you were in no way bothered by it, then accusing her of sexual assault was pretty fucking over the top, my dude.)

When this woman slapped your ass, in the gym you own, where, if I understood the story correctly, you employ her, did you feel threatened? Were you afraid she was going to do something else to you? Did your position of power as a man in American society and as a business owner and employer escape you? I mean: there are reasons you might have felt powerless. Maybe you have trauma. Maybe you have a history with this woman you didn't bring up in your story. If you had genuine fear that this woman might touch you in ways you weren't okay with (though you insist the butt slap itself did not bother you) then your "hastag Metoo" comment was appropriate. It also wasn't a joke. And I'm glad for you that she listened and has stopped touching you. And you should stop telling this story the way you're telling it. If your point is actually "men can also be assaulted," go watch some videos of Terry Crews and stop acting like you were joking.

If you didn't have that fear, if you really weren't bothered by the slap, if you were secure in the privilege of your position the entire time, then saying effectively "you sexually assaulted me!" was a pretty shitty thing to do and not remotely a funny joke and you should consider apologizing to this woman. When you understand what you actually did.

If what happened was somewhere in the middle, if maybe you didn't feel fear of assault but you weren't completely unbothered, you felt objectified or uncomfortable, consider setting boundaries with something other than "you sexually assaulted me!" Consider finding your goddamn words and saying, "Hey, that's not okay, I don't appreciate being touched that way. I'm fine with hugging, and with sport/performance-related touching, but that was gratuitous and inappropriate and I didn't like it." the more specific you are, the more likely you are to be able to have the relationship you want. It's pretty unlikely she would have gotten offended if you'd just told her you didn't like her slapping your butt. It's not too late to do this. You can tell her you didn't really think through the implications of what you said to her, and you didn't actually feel sexually assaulted, but you didn't like getting your ass slapped and that's all you really wanted to ask her to stop. If you throw in a legitimate "sorry" she might stop being offended and consider hugging you again.

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I'm tired of thinking about this. Maybe now that I've written it all out I can go the fuck to bed.

Current Mood: tired

I posted some fic last night! Yay!

Catch Lightning in a Bottle, on AO3, by

jmtorres
Fandom: Good Omens
Word Count: 1632
Rating: E
Pairing: Aziraphale/Crowley
Additional Tags: PWP, Crowley Grudgingly Has A Penis Today, just a coupla queer masc nb angels, neural stimulation, neural sex, psychic sex?, making an effort sounds like work, Aziraphale has an Idea, Dom/sub Undertones, Crowley is a somewhat uncommunicative submissive, Overstimulation, Forced Orgasm, grey-A characters having complicated feels about sexual body parts, sexy sexy physiology, Coming Untouched, A Tiny Bit of Praise Kink
Summary: Crowley's not that into manifesting genitals, but Aziraphale's really into giving Crowley orgasms, so he works on a compromise.

just some light ethereal/occult sex experiments for your casual reading

( story on DW if you prefer to read here )

i listened to the 2014 radio adaptation of Good Omens; some variations:

–so radio’s solution to all the important stuff in the narration was to cram it into dialogue, mostly. Crowley talks about himself ALL THE TIME because how else would you know he has a watch that can tell the time in 20 cities and also Hell. He casually tells Aziraphale about the time he slept all century including the part where he got up to go to the lav in 1832. (I am just picturing Aziraphale’s … face.) Also he talks himself through like all of his actions, from watering his plants to getting holy water out of his safe.

–in order to get Aziraphale’s rare Bible collection out of book narration into dialogue, he and Crowley quote the Buggre Alle This Bible at each other, including the bit about “where is the flaming sword I gave unto thee” which Crowley takes great glee in Aziraphale’s embarrassment about

–Agnes Nutter takes on part of the narration (and actually talks to Adam at one point). Also the opening bit about when the earth was created, those are Aziraphale’s notes in I don’t know what monograph he’s writing but, *snicker*

–Aziraphale has caller ID?? so there’s a bit where Crowley calls him (I forget which phone call it is; he doesn’t call from the road about Armageddon at the beginning, he just shows up at the shop the next morning). anyway Aziraphale answers the phone, “Crowley,” and Crowley asks how’d you know it was me, and Aziraphale snarks at him about his longstanding ability to anticipate his age-old enemy, and also that he has caller ID. (I’m so doubtful. I’d be more likely to believe Aziraphale never gave his phone number to anyone but Crowley, so Crowley is literally the only person who ever calls him.)

–their Arrangement seems much more “we do stuff with each other all the time, we’ve basically blown off Heaven and Hell entirely, we literally state our goal is to maintain the status quo” like there’s much less of the….? like? reticence/denial that shows up in the show. i mean also the huge chunk of how their relationship across history was expanded in the show was not in the radio version, because it’s not exactly spelled out that way in the book either. but like, Aziraphale needs much less convincing to go in on plan stop the antichrist, and weirdly their motivation about loving the world seems much more selfish?

–Aziraphale and Crowley spot the Dowling household’s ads in the paper for nanny and gardener, and Aziraphale dibs gardener. Crowley complains about “have you ever seen me in a dress” and Aziraphale replies “Culloden, 1745” so there’s a new one for the femme Crowley fan artists (please?)

–if you are into Nanny Ashtoreth/Brother Francis and/or how they basically raised Warlock, listen to the first episode at least! they are SUPER terrible at staying in character and just like directly bicker with each other over Warlock’s head

–Crowley is smart/pragmatic enough to just drop the ansaphone tape with Hastur on it into the Ligur-holy-water puddle, so no more Hastur

–Crowley complains about Hell not telling him the M25 was more than like, vandalism. he was not expecting it to burst into flames me thinks

–the other four horsepersons are in the radio adaptation, if you were missing them from the show. as far as I recall the book (having listened to it twice recently, lol) their scenes are very faithful.

–oh hey you know that scene in the book when Aziraphale is trying to find someone to possess before he finds Madame Tracy, he ends up in a televangelist talking about rapture and is very judgmental about that? crowley hears his broadcast interruption on the radio. it’s kind of sweet. (you have to assume the Bentley is just tuned to Aziraphale, because how else does its radio randomly pick up live tv from America.)

–Pepper gives Adam the pep talk that helps him overcome Satan! It is about choosing things for oneself and how she chose to be Pepper and not Pippin Galadriel Moonchild. It is super sweet.

–the audible version I listened to has a gag reel attached, including Crowley-actor’s completely inability to pronounce Crowley with the long-O sound as gneil intended.

cross-posted from tumblr

I posted a Good Omens fic! It is silly.

The Thousand Natural Shocks That Flesh Is Heir To by

jmtorres
Fandom: Good Omens
Pairing: Aziraphale/Crowley
Rating: Mature
Additional tags: just a coupla queer masc nb angels, kinky-ass humaning, the lube/not lube game
Word Count: 1379

Summary: It's an experiment they talked about; teased each other with, once they realized they were both a bit turned on by the thought of the restriction. To be human, limited and mortal, and to experience sex that way, fully embodied.

Explanation:

ariaste posted an essay on lube in Good Omens fic that made me ponder under what circumstances Aziraphale and Crowley might actually need to think about lube. The answer I came up with was "kinky-ass humaning."

I saw the whole series with

stariceling a... couple of week ago? And also I watched half the series with my family on father's day before leaving my prime logged in on their roku so they could finish it. and also I watched a bunch of it with

niqaeli. Also I listened to the book on the drive to and from visiting

niqaeli, which was interesting; the series is a VERY faithful adaptation to the point that I've started filling in things from one to the other and was startled upon rewatch that certain book bits were not in the show. ( spoilers? ) I don't particularly have a preference for one version over the other but that might be because my brain seems to be classifying them as the same thing, essentially.

headache today, which fortunately waited until after I was done with homework to descend. It feel sinusy? except the parts where it also flashes into my scalp and the hinge of jaw sometimes? a little bit migrainey, noises and the sun were not helping it. nsaid didn't do much about it. suspect it is a rexulti withdrawal headache, despite my desire to attribute it to other things I could more immediately treat.

now that I have high hopes of getting an A in the class, I am having some of the old anxiety about the subjective part of the points, ie the discussion questions. the prof gave me full points on the last discussion question so I felt like I had to Live Up to Expectations or something? that was getting in the way of me working on it at all. I had to remind myself that it is okay to half-ass stuff, half-assing an assignment is better than not doing it, it's okay if I don't get full points on this discussion question, it might not even prevent me from getting an A if my test scores stay high.

it's after two in the morning which is about when I've been getting the sleep the last few days--last night I tried to go down at midnight but belched with GERD for three hours. Mind you now that I'm trying to write an entry I'm yawning my face off. I would like to shift my sleep schedule back so I could have actual mornings, but I am relieved that the current trend is ~8 hours a night instead of the 11ish when I was taking rexulti or the the like, 17 from a few bad days of the withdrawal.

I have an Audible account and enjoy listening to audiobooks, but I have a bad habit of buying a bunch of things during sales and then not listening to them until almost the end of the return period, which is a year. So right now I'm trying out a bunch of titles I bought last June and groaning to myself over my sale lots from july and august as well.

Stuff I've chucked back:
--The House of the Spirits, Isabelle Allende. When I bought this I had just binged all of Jane the Virgin, but I'm not longer in that fannish headspace? Because it's a year later. I did listen to about ten minutes or so to see if it would grab me, but it did not, and also had mention of someone in a cage encrusted in his own filth within that first ten minutes, and even assuming things would get better for that character, that just... wasn't quite working for me.
--The Stars my Destination, Alfred Bester. I knew very little about this but I occasionally expose myself to classic sci-fi just because, like, roots? This edition had a forward talking about the history of science fiction and how it ages, by Neil Gaiman I'm pretty sure they said, and the forward referred to the protagonist of this book as a predator, a killer and a rapist. Welp, that's very clear, thank you for the warning label, I said, and noped out.
--Existence, David Brin. I actually listened to several hours of this while driving to Phoenix recently, and I wasn't originally going to chuck it because nothing about it bothered me, but I also realized nothing about it grabbed me, either? There were it seemed like a dozen viewpoint characters and I didn't care about any of them, so.
--Somebody Tell Aunt Tillie She's Dead, Christiana Miller. I listened to the first few chapters and was super uncomfortable with how rac(ism) played in a confrontation between the white wicca protagonist and her latina Catholic landlady. Also the best friend was kind of painfully stereotypically flamboyantly gay.
--annnnnnnd safari ate half the entry because I went out to twitter to find a link so the rest of this is going to be much more abbreviated than it was before.
--The Invisible Library, Genevieve Cogman. I disliked the narrator, who made it sound as if every sentence ended with three exclamation marks, but I enjoyed the book when I checked out a hard copy from the library.

Stuff I'm keeping:
--The Golem and the Jinni, Helene Wecker. Rocky start, as before the Golem became conscious our viewpoint character was the creep who wanted to buy a golem for a wife, but he died very immediately and now she's a free golem with no master to give her orders, and I am excited to find out what happens to her next.
--The Light Brigade, Kameron Hurley. I am a sucker for time travel stuff and this loops interestingly. The final piece of causality I did not see coming, but it fit neatly.
--Fortune's Rising, Sara King. I only listened to maybe half an hour of this, but I liked the scifi premise it set up, colony world finds brain-enhancing drug, suddenly their entire economy is producing the drug and sending it back home.
--Nevermoor: The Trials of Morrigan Crow, Jessica Townsend. I listened to the whole book and bought the sequel because I couldn't put it down. 11-yr-old protagonist but apparently coming of age/kid's adventure is still a favorite genre of mine.
--The Traitor Baru Cormorant, Seth Dickinson
--The Book of the Unnamed Midwife, Meg Elison. Apocafic with plenty of dark stuff but like, queer characters EVERYWHERE. the narrator is gender-nonconforming and bisexual. I bought the sequel.

Stuff I need to listen to soonish:
--Servant of the Underworld, Aliette de Bodard--Aztec murder mystery if I recall correctly.
--Cold Magic, Kate Elliott. this one and the de Bodard were recced to me when I asked twitter for alternate history novels where Native Americans/First Nations peoples weren't colonized but were instead political players among world governments.
--Apocalypse Nyx, Kameron Hurley--I think this is short stories in the Bel Dame Apocrypha universe.
--A Perilous Undertaking, Deanna Raybourn. Sequel to A Curious Beginning, which I liked--a young Victorian lady figures out the socially acceptable way for her to Do Science and Travel and stuff is to study butterflies. There's also political intrigue.
--The Sparrow, Mary Doria Russell
--Grass, Sheri Tepper
--Dreamer's Pool, Juliet Marillier
--Tooth and Claw, Jo Walton
--Graveyard Book, Neil Gaiman
--Android's Dream, John Scalzi
--Fuzzy Nation, John Scalzi
--Agent to the Stars, John Scalzi there was a sale okay. I recognize I'm going to have to figure out how much I actually like John Scalzi in the next couple of months.
--Imajica, Clive Barker
--Soulless, Gail Carriger
--Broken Monsters, Lauren Beukes
--Vicious, VE Schwab

That's the list through September anyway. Tell me what I should listen to soonest (after I finish the ones I'm in progress on).

need to remember not to catch up on tumblr before sitting down to vid, because I need something to do while rendering occurs.

fcp crapped out on me about an hour ago and so far has opened the project 20% of the way. I had hoped to see before bedtime how much of my progress the crash ate. Grr, argh.

It's taken me nearly three months but I have managed to update all of the links to all of my vids from my journal and on ao3. (I think. I mean, tell me if you find a broken link now!)

full listing of vids on ao3

i've made a lot of vids. frankly more than i had realized. it's that whole passage of time thing...

coming to you from circa 2000 CE and 2000 BCE, a Highlander vid.

This is a vid I started making in 2003 with a song I got from an SG1 Daniel Jackson vid about his delusions of world domination in Absolute Power by Rhian, which you can find on their website even after all these years, and with footage captured from SpikeTV Highlander reruns (I was not in the fandom in the heyday of its broadcast airing. I came later). It's about Methos, Cassandra, the Four Horsemen, rape, change, time, parallels, stuff. In 2004 I took it to

vividcon for critique and advice in Vividsection. I never finished the vid, though I made a stab and incorporating some of the suggestions I got about long shots and talky faces when I recut the bulk of it with DVD rip footage sometime in, *checks file dates* 2009.

I've been updating my vid links and posting old vids to AO3 as I've made them available, and I felt like, this was such a high percentage of a vid I'd like to go ahead and post it. I'm gonna post two versions--the Neat version and the Dirty version.

The neat version, which is the remastered major part of the vid, is viewable on its own as a complete vid in and of itself. The dirty version is most closely related to the version that went to Vividsection, with all the SpikeTV logos but also with the remastered version coscreened for comparison. There's over a minute extra of footage, some of which I am very proud of technically (there's a long sequence of things divided on the overlaid line of Methos's blue facepaint), especially considering the first cut was in iMovie, and I think the dirty version is metatextually interesting. But I suspect the reason I never finished remastering the clean version to longer than it is is that that section of the vid is a strong, tight vid by itself, and *checks calendar* fifteen years ago the main thing I was suffering from was the idea that you had to use the entirety of a song for a vid or it was cheating, when cutting it was the right thing to do. (the song is about 30 seconds longer than even the dirty version, and has a long fadeout, the worst kind of ending to fight with for a vid. it's no wonder I could never fill that timeline.)

It's a vid!
Ordinary Boy (neat)--the standalone version with clean footage, 39.3MB MP4
Ordinary Boy (dirty)--an unfinished WIP mess, presented for interest in vidding technical details, 53.6MB mp4
Fandom: Highlander
Song: Ordinary Boy by Adam Pascal
Vidder:

jmtorres
Warnings: like, nothing that's not in canon, but this is the two-parter about when Methos and his fellow horsemen were raping and pillaging their way across Mesopotamia, so, a fair amount of violence, some of it sexual.

Cross-posting to

houseoftorres and AO3.

spent this week ping-ponging back and forth between writing fanfic and doing homework. Usually after a lot of homework my brain is too tired to write, so I gave into the temptation to start writing early in the day and blow off homework a few times. Then did four chapters of homework in one day on Friday to catch up.

I have over 4000 words of fic written and it's getting long enough that it's starting to be a pain that I'm using the notes app on ipad, because scrolling. Also it's getting long enough that I want to post it and have feedback (well, more feedback than

enemyofperfect, who is an excellent alpha reader and has been squeeing line by line) but it's definitely not a whole story yet. Like I'm not even to the main part of the story based on the rough outline I have in various chat logs. Like, even if I decided to chapter it and post it as a WIP, which is a terrible idea, I want to be able to revise it as I get further along, I think I currently have a prologue and about half a chapter. I am bursting at the seams to be able to share this fanfic and I can't write fast enough to satisfy the urge. creativity is hard.

There is a test that opens tomorrow and closes May 5th, and

niqaeli will be here for much of that time so I'm arguing with myself about my weekend as a weekend vs studying a lot tomorrow to take it before she comes and not have it hanging over my head. Realistically I won't want to be studying while she's here, and I won't have a lot of time after she leaves either, I have another social engagement, a screening of Amelie with

jetpack_monkey on May 4th.

Also I want to be vidding. I feel like the Magicians vid I have half of on the timeline has a very limited shelflife and I need to get it out soon, but I haven't actively worked on it in weeks. Because school, and writing, and the show itself being a big downer.

so i clicked on a thing on tumblr in a sort of "why the hell not" gesture and now I have an actual invite (non-transferable, they want govt ID, good thing I used my wallet name email) to a She-ra screening at Dreamworks in two days but you know, just me, not me and a friend, even if I had friends who weren't like, at work on a Thursday.

I don't know how to go alone to fannish/promotional events, I will now have an existential crisis about this purely optional thing I signed up for.

so i'm contemplating working on that magicians vid about how it's like getting punched in the face,,, I need to look through footage and see if there's ever a shot of Kady's fist just coming at the camera

so I was binging Magicians just as s4 was starting, and I had the incredible experience of surfing a wave of fannish zeitgeist with the peaches and plums thing. And I'd been working on this vid that encapsulated that experience, and then this last week in Magicians fandom happened seemingly negating the slash pairing everyone was so excited about by putting a het pairing back together. and like, I went welp I'm checking out of Magicians fandom this week I don't even want to hear the wails.

except I didn't? Like I basically went to all the fannish social media I normally do, just prepared to be really detached. and the weirdest thing happened, I didn't see anyone being mad or betrayed or heartbroken about the episode, not in a pure sense. I saw a bunch of people reacting like their feeds were full of that, but all I got was the world-weary "I knew this wasn't going to last, and you should've known too."

(I'm not sure that's true? This show has already done several things with fandom's fave slash pairing that wouldn't have happened on TV ten or twenty years ago? Like, no, I didn't know it wasn't going to last, and I'm not being naive to be hopeful about an astonishing trend continuing.)

anyway I'm,,,, kind of meh about working on the vid now. I am Quentin Coldwater ranting at the plant of Fillory love about how it just isn't enough. Like, I don't want to capture the experience of being swept up in the moment and then let down; but I also feel like the time for the vid just about being swept up in the moment has passed.

anyway, I don't know, maybe something will happen in 4x13 to turn things around; my personal experience of this show has been so foreshortened and immediate that if it takes until next season to fix things I might not be here anymore. But i still have my fingers halfway crossed for another barrage of peaches and plums next week. I don't want to know better.

it is incredibly difficult to tell the difference between "I'm sick and don't feel like doing anything/should rest until I recover" and "executive function has not switched on for the day"

suprisingly myself possibly the most of everyone, I started writing a story about a week and a half ago and like, kept writing on it the next day and the day after that and like, finished it? please congratulate me on my successful brain function

anyway,

Title: A Mass of Cells
Author:

jmtorres
Fandom: Star Trek (like.... which one? i know okay)
Pairing: Amanda Grayson/Sarek
Rating: idk I picked teen on ao3 because like, there's no on page sex but there is dialogue acknowledging the existence of sex, its relation to pregnancy, and certain scandalous things a vulcan and a human can do to each other
Ao3 Link: https://archiveofourown.org/works/18405278

Or you can read it below the cut.( Read more... )

my wrist still hurts, making typing (and command keys) a pain. fortunately it's my offhand so i can still take notes for class without it bothering me (I just don't want to).

I woke up in the middle of the night with a toothache. Only, when I gave up on ignoring it and went to the bathroom to stare in the mirror tapping teeth to figure out which one it was (the one that's getting replaced with an implant? or the one that just got a crown? or a nearby one just ruining everything?) it went away? so i'm thinking it's sinus, because positional changes affecting level of pain. I had it again this morning and it went away again when I got up. I mean yay but also wtf why.

So i have 2 vids in 2 fandoms competing for headspace right now, and I picked one to work on on vacation based on not needing the entire series it was in to do it--it's a Killjoys vid about Pree, and in most of three seasons he's in about 2 scenes per episode, and cutting just his scenes means my source base is small enough to fit on the ipad for an attempt at imovie vidding. I am now up to s4 in vidding and he's in a lot more scenes but like, not doing anything, just providing reaction shots. Which might be useful for my vid, but are a lot more annoying to hunt down. Considering just taking the first three seasons' clips with me and seeing how far I can get on the vid without season four.

anyway, because I've been focusing on clipping Killjoys, I had a brilliant inspiration about the Magicians vid that I am definitely not vidding while away from the desktop. I mean, I wrote it down? It's not like I'm going to lose it in that sense. But the feeling, that's going to go away by the time I come home again, and damn it, I really wanted to ride that feeling to approximately oh look i made 3/4 of a vid I'm almost done. Instead I'm being a responsible graduate student and taking an exam, sigh.

so I had this idea to see if I could vid in imovie on my ipad so I could take it on vacation with me. not even getting into the gesture based interface, I fully expected getting clips in to be the biggest pain in the ass. I was not wrong.

so far:
--my agéd imac, which I am using to prep files, cannot interface with any kind of cloud, operating system and browsers are too old and unupdateable
--so currently my file transfer system is put the files on a USB drive, then plug that into my chromebook because it actually has a USB port, and upload from there to Google Drive
--imovie on ipad WILL import mp4s from Google Drive, successfully tested this with some vid files
--but it does not like the straight episode files. i mean, MKV, okay.
--plan: use quicktime on the old imac to cut clips of episodes, save as .movs
--obstacle 1: season 4 cannot be opened by anything on my imac. I gave it to echan and they were like "well here's your problem" turns out s4 is encoded in a codec from like, last year. agéd imac cannot handle. echan transcoding files for me!
--obstacle 2: quicktime on imac has cried foul on transcoded files (invalid sample description??)
--currently running transcode from VLC to see if that will help???
--obstacle 3: the .movs I saved of clips and laboriously sneakernetted to Google Drive will not open in imovie in the imac
--may have to transcode those after all
--have not conceptually proved I can get clips into imovie on ipad at all
--I should really go do some homework since I didn't get any done yesterday and that burns my spare day and the library closes at 5pm again today. time for wearing pants.

as my break activity between bits of homework, I have been updating the links to all my vids. this is brilliant because: as an activity on its own I would get bored with it and not finish it, but as a break activity, it means I want to go do homework so I can do the break thing. I think I've collected all my finished, posted vids to update, although I had a couple of scares--Bad Kids is not in my extant files, although I discovered that the fact that I uploaded it to youtube means that copy is available to me to download, so I have the good-enough-for-web file even if I don't have an uncompressed version or the final cut timeline.

but i should really get back to this consolidated financial statements lecture

so back when I was contemplating the ill-advised threesome without knowledge of later events, episodes, seasons, I was thinking to myself, what if Alice's reaction was different? Could you spin it into poly, like, the show knows the concept? What if it was something like, "You know, my mother thinks I need a whole group of people to really get me. I don't think I'm that complicated, but maybe you are. 'A lot,' was what she said about you. And you are, you're carrying around so much baggage, Quentin, maybe you need more than one person to deal with all of it. So--so, fine. They care about you, you needed them. I can deal with that."

And then the relationship name would have been quaaludes, for quentin/alice and dudes (Margo is totally one of the dudes).

last night was the first night since the surgery that I adjusted my sleeping position in my actual sleep as opposed to waking up and shifting the pillow; as a result my leg was not elevated the whole night, and actually I slept facedown part of the night which is ?? seems to indicate the surgery is healing well enough it doesn't bother me to have the site be in contact with things, we'll take that as a positive, I guess? beginning to be resigned to the fluid reservoir bulge, which seems pretty constant even with elevating and icing. If it doesn't wreck my patella, I don't care. I wish I could walk for long enough distances to make determinations about how the patella's gonna float, hopeful I'll get permission to go back to normal activity after my post-op appointment tomorrow. I have a scar just above my ankle from an old car accident that's been hurting lately, can't figure out if this is related to the knee surgery or the lack of walking or what.

I want to do some cooking and baking and am trying to decide how much standing in the kitchen I am really up for.

I read a comment about the queer/sexual/romantic identities of Magicians characters ( wrt to most recent episode )

I wonder if Fen's dad had tried the high king cutting knife on the girls, would he have gotten a hit on Margo

right okay so my plan to eagle eye watch the Magicians threesome somewhat hampered by final cut for some reason truncated the episode. Four platforms later, I watched the threesome, such as it is, frame by frame. I. Honestly. I'm still not impressed. What we have is:

--they're fucked up on emotion magic
--at least two of them (quentin and eliot) are pretty drunk
--margo and quentin are putting eliot to bed because he's stupid drunk
--and he passes out
--so there's a little scene where margo and quentin talk about how they're worried about eliot while lying on the bed clothed next to passed out eliot
--then Margo leans in for a comfort cuddle which quentin provides
--then we cut to the next morning, where quentin wakes up
--this is where final cut punked out like a prude
--and all three of them are naked in bed together, and he remembers little flashes, and if this is not supposed to imply he was blackout drunk then I'm sorry they made poor editing choices
--so the flashes are, in order:
--quentin and margo kissing, both topless
--quentin and eliot kissing, eliot still has his shirt on, for some reason I am wondering if he was too drunk for buttons
--margo and eliot embracing, possibly kissing? while quentin is a strong chest to lean on
--pan down the bed to their naked feet and Alice looking all betrayed

end of episode. Now to watch the next episode and see if the contextualizing dialogue salvages that any, but on the whole, it is still kind of, was anyone actually in their own head enough to meaningfully consent to that, for what portion of it was eliot even conscious, does this actually indicate anything about feelings or were they all just fumbling around on autopilot?? (it would not surprise me that much if eliot has sex autopilot. especially in his current spiral of self-destruction.)

i kind of do, but kind of don't, want a snapshot of fandom's reaction the week between that episode ending and the follow up.

eta: part II, episode 1x12
so we have everyone being awkward, and flashes of:
--quentin and margo going from the comfort cuddle to kissing
--to getting undressed kissing
--the same flash of eliot and margo embracing against quentin's chest
--eliot climbing that chest to kiss quentin. both of them are cupping each other's necks it's kind of sweet
--but seriously eliot was passed out has he even mumbled coherently at this point

in the morning after eliot is self-mocking and quentin is admitting to being "not okay" (alice broke up with him, so) and margo thinks they're both being self-pitying idiots.

so anyway I pretty strongly feel the show did not actually give fandom a gift here.

so I'm clipping Magicians for this vid I'm making because I want to be more fannish and I'm excited to have a creative idea, even if it is lulzy whatever. I'm currently in the doldrums of season 1 between when the Beast appears (which was the first episode, actually) and when they actually end up in the Library and Fillory and plotty stuff. Seriously there is nothing for my vid in most of early/mid s1. I marked one episode "the one where everyone gets laid, foxes" because it had nothing I wanted to use and I didn't want to come back and think I hadn't clipped it because it wasn't marked. (Then I was like, wait, Quentin and Alice get together in 1x07, pretty sure they break up by the end of the season, they actually had a short relationship for all they keep being heartbroken at each other later on, jeez)

I'm also listening to the audiobook of the first novel, and like people told me Quentin was waaaaay into Eliot in the books but I honestly was surprised a bit. So in what I've listened to so far, Quentin bonded with Eliot during the two weeks before the semester started when they were the only people on campus because Eliot doesn't like to go home to his family and Quentin asked not to after his exam because he was afraid the bubble was going to burst. Then eveyrone comes back on campus and Eliot starts hanging out with his sophomore friends again and leaves Quentin behind and Quentin was all sad.

Then Quentin accidentally (well for the first little bit it's an accident) spies on Eliot blowing a dude and is shocked! aghast! hurt! --that Eliot didn't tell him he was gay, and that Eliot didn't want to fuck Quentin. I am so um what at Quentin. Like, in the first place, maybe I had the advantage of already knowing Eliot was gay because I'd seen the show, but I could have sworn Eliot did tell him?? I thought about it and it was just, Eliot was extremely flamboyant at him, and told him his family thought he was at a school for computer geeeks and homosexuals, which to my ear was obviously a soft coming out to test the waters with Quentin, and Quentin failed to give the proper response, not through bigotry but through obliviousness.

But also, why didn't Eliot do stuff with him? Oh Quentin. *facepalm* Sadly what I've heard is that Quentin is super hung up on Eliot not that they ever actually get together in the books, so I expect this to be a long road of suffering. No wonder fandom likes this. It's pining while oblivious.

It seems like the pining goes in the other direction in the show. There's no particular evidence I've seen that Quentin is into Eliot, though he's not blind to gayness, he's just off being super into Alice and magic. Meanwhile in the first episode apparently Eliot was talking Quentin up to Margo because when she meets him she's like "he doesn't seem THAT special," and just now in 1x08 there was an exchange between Eliot and his (tragically externally magically manipulated) boyfriend about how Quentin is cute, but Eliot called dibs. I mean I know there's the threesome coming up somewhere, I remember being like "I can't decide if this show gave slashers a gift or not" about it, but the first time I watched it I didn't actually get... any particular attraction from Quentin's end? He seemed very blank slate, stuff happened but without his agency. Maybe that was an artifact of how the threesome was presented, where instead of seeing it happen we just see him waking up afterwards all confuzzled, like he was blackout drunk in the fake, cute TV way. I'll definitely be watching that episode closely when I clip it (probably later today?). But I do wonder how much of fandom's read that Quentin is super into Eliot is crossover from the boooks.

also worth noting: I'm kind of surprised no one warned me that if there is a cute fluffy animal, this show will DEFINITELY kill it bloodily.

I have a temporary filling waiting for a partial crown for 2 weeks, it feels like a gob of putty stuck to my teeth I hate it. Awesome.

experiments with the ice cream maker so far:

1. coconut caramel with praline pecans. 1 cup milk, 1 cup cream, 1 can of coconut sweetened condensed milk caramelized by boiling for 4 hours, one 5oz package of candied pecans. Came out sweeter than I expected, also I was hoping for a caramel swirl and to do that you really have to put it in at the last 5 seconds, not the last 5 minutes, as the manual recommends for add-ins.

2. cherry garcia sherbet--1 lb package of frozen cherries, food processored with 1/3 cup of dark chocolate chips, 1 cup cream. so the instructions are like "chill your ingredients before putting in the ice cream maker. no, colder than that. no, colder than that. COLDER." so anyway I was like "what if I just use frozen cherries is that cold enough?" it turns out it's too cold actually, the ice cream maker couldn't make the mixture like actually mix and take in air for fluffiness, it was just a huge hard lump pretty much. A tasty lump at least. Chopped dark choc chips a fave now.

3. Raspberry cheesecake ice cream--12 oz package of frozen raspberries food processored with 1/3 cup dark choc chips, 8 oz package of neufchatel, 1 pint half-and-half, 2/3 cup sugar. Too much volume for the ice cream maker, fluffed over the edge. Tasty though. commercial ice cream clearly uses significantly less fruit in their fruit flavored ice cream. the neufchatel did not fully blend with the half-and-half but I think that will work for getting chunks of more cheesecaky through the ice cream. Lots of raspberry seeds.

I got sucked into this game

echan told me about, Terragenesis, that has you terraform the planets in our system based on NASA data. So I far I did the Moon on Beginner mode (I achieved Paradise levels, but, Beginner mode), Mercury on Medium mode, and now I'm doing Mars on Expert Mode with Biospheres.

random thoughts:

Biosphere mode has you genetically engineering life forms to suit them to however you've fucked up the environmental levels.

brokenallbroken asked about gravity adaptations, and huh, that's one factor that doesn't show up in environmentals at all even though it should be different on each of the different planets and they're plenty detailed for most things. Maybe because a) you can't change it and b) we don't know enough about how it will affect life forms, like, developmentally?

The whole genetic engineering thing makes the Jurassic Park gag that turns up as one of the colony culture flavor texts make more sense. I was amused by it when I was playing in easy mode, but now I'm like ahahahaha right we're playing with fire.

Speaking of playing with fire, pretty much as soon as my environment could support carnivores I made dragons (reptiles + large + flying + i fucked up the O2 environmental adaptation).

echan side-eyed me about it. Well, my terrestrial food chain got too top-heavy and I (am going to assume evacuated rather than killed) my entire colonial population when the plant life fell below support level, so I killed off all but one of my terrestrial carnivores and about half my herbivores to correct. No more land dragons--the carnivore I kept was a domesticated mammal that I have been thinking of as cats. (The sea still has dragons. Also sharks.) All my plants are listed at "rampant" or "overpopulated" and I refuse to assume this means they can support more animals, I am just going to leave the jungles growing out of control rather than risk environmental collapse again.

My policy has been, once I get the environmental levels in range, to turn off as much technology as possible and stop dicking with them. This is why no part of my colonial population had hab domes to retreat to when I fucked up the plant life the other day. This also means that generally the only thing I've left on is children's creches (they don't have environmental effects, only human population ones), and that when the colonial culture/sociopolitical flavor texts come up, well--

the terrorists trying to prevent Martian independence are generally blowing up children's creches.

and like partly my policy about turning all the technology off is BECAUSE terrorists blew up something I was controlling air pressure with on the Moon and I came back to ZERO ATMOSPHERE, so what I've done is limit what they can blow up to things that won't screw up the enviroment and kill everyone--but could the one-line villains have SOME modifier of shame about the optics of blowing up children?

I wish there were acknowledgements of population and culture in the mining outposts, because those miners are definitely doing stuff. I get updates about them occasionally--they've struck paydirt, or they upgraded the mine status to be more efficient. They seem like an ebullient bunch. And I wish I could convert the mining outposts to cities directly, instead of my current method, which is, when I no longer need the mining revenue because the cities are economically viable, demolish the mines and establish a city in the same place with the same name. They'll start from zero on culture which is so unfair.

another random gripe: why are there so many anti-vaxxers in space???? If you don't trust science and technology why did you move to another planet???? because it seems like I'm always having to counter anti-intellectual campaigns.

it's funny that the elevation of cities is set at a single point rather than over their spread. I've had a couple of Venices that were clearly slipping into the ocean, but the game didn't warn me about drowning at all because the elevation was set on the peak in the center.

Current Mood: procrastinating

I modded my IKEA desk with a keyboard tray, and it was a delicate thing. like, the weight of a keyboard was fine on it but I needed the movers not like, try to lift the desk by the tray? and they did. and they popped out the hardware.

the desk is like, hollow core particle board. I used a--I can't figure out what the name was, but it was like a washer with teeth? So it sat into the top of the desk and distributed the pull of the long screw coming through from the keyboard tray. so that got yanked through the top of the desk so I have a like, 3/4 inch wide hole in the top of the desk looking down into the hollow interior.

i don't want to spend money on a new desk; I just moved, and spent SO much money doing that. and I might have to replace my desktop computer soon. anyway I know this desk is a piece of glorified cardboard coming apart at the seams, but I still want to figure out if I could FIX it.

does anyone have any recommendations for some substance I could fill the hole with, that would grip the screw well enough to carry the keyboard tray? my brain has come up with putty, epoxy, and caulk, and I have very little idea what the properties of any of those are or how they overlap. but i'm hitting a hardware store later for nails and dowels for some other shelving the movers effed up so, I guess I can look at options?

echan has been rewatching Blacklist, and we're in the middle of parts with a great deal of who the fuck is biologically related to whom and DOES IT EVEN MATTER. (that's very specific and all, I know.)

and something about how Red told Alexander Kirk that Liz grew up in his house, sometimes he was there, sometimes he wasn't, etc etc, made me wonder if the thing with Red and Mama Rostova and Alexander Kirk was something like Alchemy and Other Lies, and then I went down the rabbit hole of

Blacklist, with Alicia Hughes as Liz Keen; Roy Mustang, a disgraced figure who's been in hiding since assassinating the monarch comes out of the woodwork to be a creepy mentor at Alicia when she grows up to take the State Alchemy Exam. Disclaims being her father, and then out of completely different woodwork comes a homunculus in the form of Maes Hughes. He needs her blood to alchemically sustain him! Except it turns out she's not actually his daughter so her blood won't work! Shock! How can it be true!

Then I started contemplating Liz's husband Tom Keen, and who would fit into the role of as a child, kidnapped and molded into a criminal-soldier, worked for Roy, who secretly planted him on Alicia to keep her safe--and I'm like oh god, it's practically one of Elrics. Right down to more parent shenanigans, surprise Mom isn't dead she's an evil ~~vampire~~ mercenary.

and i'm just
dying so so much
like
i can't even, I'm not even sure WHICH Elric brother you could force into the mold personality-wise,

meanwhile I'm also imagining Riza Hawkeye as the influential woman high in secret operations who has, of course, had backroom dealings with Roy Mustang, but doesn't admit to knowing him. Not since he became a traitor, of course. I mean, Roy also needs a Mr. Kaplan, but *hands*

also

echan brought my attention to a minor character, a dude named Baz who Reddington installs in the apartment next to Liz's to be her bodyguard, played by an actor with the unlikely name of Bazzel Baz. My gut feeling here is Armstrong *sparkle*

echan and I are watching Terminator: Sarah Connor Chronicles and I was pondering what makes John Connor so important (because as a teenager he is himself starting to ask what the fuck does he do in the future that's so important) and I had the thought, what if because of the absurd circumstances of his origin, he can hold multiple timelines in his head, and that's what's so important, future!John and Skynet are locked in this chess match of strategic time travel moves.

The show is getting pretty heavily into "you're not the person I knew, you're not from the future I was from," alternate timelines stuff, and both sides keep sending people back trying to change things. I was reminded of Miles Vorkosigan learning about the Xanatos gambit from Cavilo in Vor Game; "not a path to victory but all paths," and like what if that was how time travel warfare worked, you had to fight it out until all possible timelines were satisfactory to whoever survived or they'd send someone back in time and fuck shit up some more--which COULD mean fighting to the complete annihilation of one side, ala Skynet's opening move of "I will kill your mother before you were even born!!!", but the more complex the temporal interferences get, the more it has to mean, both/all sides in this war come to agreement/equilibrium, such that they can all choose not to send someone back to fuck shit up some more. It also seems like some sort of compromise is very much what future!John is trying to do with Cameron and other metal.

And there's one bit we just watched that it makes super interesting for me--when John is confronting Jessie about her plot to get Cameron to kill and/or frame Cameron for killing Riley, to make John stop trusting her (Cameron), Jessie asks, would it have worked? If she'd killed her, or if I'd made you think I had, would you have stopped trusting her? and John says, No. And I'm just pondering, why did she ask that, what if that the what if was the most important thing, like, how many possible outcomes of this play are there? And can John really know that, what he would have done? or, could an ordinary person not be able to know that, but John the-time-travel-predestination-paradox-loop Connor could, and that's his important power, the power to see possible timelines and also make decisions across timelines, delimiting what the possible outcomes are? (And maybe Skynet can do that just because it can crunch data like no one's business and just, like, predict the possible forks in a way that it's probably maddening to them that there's even one human who can accomplish similar intuitively?)

I mean, as far as I recall the show never really gives us future!John because that would be,,,, ehhh? for the kind of storytelling they were trying to do? but i like time travel stories a LOT and I am liking the idea that time travel turns conflict into this all-or-nothing propostion.

so my notice that I got off the vividcon waiting list landed in spam (thanks, gmail) and I'd made some other plans in August, so I decided to do streaming membership and watch vids from home. But I checked with reg about whether it was okay to hold a viewing party and stream stuff from a group of people, and they said yes, so, I am thinking about having a viewing party for Vividcon vids on either the evening of Saturday, August 11 or the afternoon/evening of Sunday, August 12 and I wanted to see how many people would be interested in coming and which day would be better.

so:

What: A vid-watching party where we watch Vividcon premieres (they show at the con on Friday Aug 10, but I still think of them as a Saturday night thing!) and possibly other shows if there's time (there's like 3-4 hours of premieres it sounds like?) Our entertainment system uses a projector, the vids will be HUUUUUGE! nearly as big as if you went to vividcon in person
When: Either Saturday August 11, or Sunday August 12, tell me your preference
Where: My apartment in downtown Los Angeles (if you take the metro, we are very near 7th St/Metro Center station; if you drive, our building has $7 valet parking, which in Los Angeles is kind of a deal >_>)
Who: Me (

jmtorres) and my brother (nuevejem) will be hosting. If you were at Vividcon in 2016 you might have met him; he's white, tall, beardy, bespectacled, and generally quiet, and one of the days he's gonna make some Stargate Atlantis vids. I don't know how many people to expect beyond us, please comment if you're interested!
Food: I'm thinking snackfood potluck + pizza?
Other notes: this is a cat household, heads up if you have allergies.

im on continuous bc i haven't had a period in ages, so of course I get one the day I am getting on a bus for like a 7 hour trip.

at least it is JUST slow bleeding, not heavy or cramps or hating the world

Last week was super busy for me, and I am too tired to talk about most of it, but I wanted to write up my experience with a particular scam type as informational for other people. One of the things on which I spent time and energy I didn't have to spare last week was a job interview that turned out to be fake.

Honestly it just pisses me the fuck off, I am an unemployed person desperately putting out my resume to dozens of linkedin and indeed listings, I don't have income because I am unemployed, but someone is going to hijack my efforts and try to squeeze money out of me somehow??

I've seen a couple of these before, and even when I didn't actually bite as far as interviewing, the effort I put into proving to myself it was a scam and not a legitimate job offer was so exhausting.

The scam goes something like this: You apply to a job listing. You receive a reply that the job has already been filled, but your resume was so impressive this person wants to hire you as a personal assistant. They're traveling out of the country and need immediately to hire someone to do some purchasing for them. They'll send you the money! You don't have to spend your own money!

I always assumed step 2 if you bite that far is they would ask for your bank account number to "send you money" or set up direct deposit or something, and then empty your account instead. But I heard from a banker this week, and apparently how the scam works is they send you a check/cashier's check for a greater amount than whatever they're asking you to buy for this fake job, and then they ask you to send the rest of the money back to them. This is some kind of money laundering scheme. My mother assumed the check would bounce after you'd sent them back money from the check written in bad faith, so that you would actually be directly robbed; I don't completely rule that out even though my reaction was "that shouldn't be possible with a cashier's check" because scams exist where scammers figure out how to exploit loopholes, right? But frankly as a money laundering thing, it doesn't even matter if the check is bad. They could send you real, dirty money, and if you send some back to them, it's clean, so they get what they want even without getting the full amount back.

If you happen to be running across this advice after having gotten in deep enough that the scammers have already sent you a check, or if you decide you want to make them pay rather than just avoid this mess, what you should do is take the check to the fraud department at your bank. They'll work on tracing it back and catching the scammers.

If you just want to avoid wasting time and energy on scams, the red flags I observed include:

The big one, the thing their scheme hinges on: they want you to buy equipment for the job, and they will send you a check to do so.

Typos and poor grammar. Like, yeah, sometimes real people make mistakes or write colloquially, but generally when they're writing emails in a professional setting to potential employees, they make an effort to clean it up. Scammers, for whatever reason, don't bother as much, and their bad grammar doesn't sound colloquial, just wrong. Verb tenses, plural/singular mix-ups, that kind of thing.

Form email without all the blanks filled in, such as, not using your name in the greeting or signing the email with a job title but not the individual's name. Especially if it also has typos and weird grammar.

The pay they're offering is too good to be true. One email offered me $1000 per week, another said $25/hr. I know there are fields where that's not absurd but I'm applying to super basic clerical, receptionist, administrative assistant type jobs, no one's going to pay that much. The most frustrating thing about this is, when the pay is that good, I feel like I have to put more effort into proving it's a scam, because what if I was wrong, what an incredible opportunity would I be ignoring? But if it sounds too good to be true, it is.

They want to hire you immediately, sight unseen. Both the immediately and the without talking to you are red flags. If it's a company of any size at all, HR will take at least a week to process you through, and there will be paperwork for you to sign. And companies offering legit jobs do not hire you without talking to you at all. Think about it--why would they pull your resume out of the stack and say "this one" when they probably have dozens if not hundreds of resumes? Scammers, on the other hand, will contact anyone whose resume they receive, tell everyone their resume is so great they want to hire them on the spot, and then run the whole money laundering crap on however many people they can get to bite.

The one I encountered last week wanted to do an interview in Google Hangouts. The email said it would be a Google Video Call, which sounded potentially legit to me, but the video call never manifested, we just did it all by chat, which..... no. (Also apparently real jobs wouldn't use Google Video Calls even, maybe Skype or Facetime, but not Google Video Calls.) The interview was followed by a request for me to wait for 10 minutes while she (I say she because the name she gave me was Mary, but I don't really know) consulted with the head of her department; after that 10 minute period she offered me the job, and wanted to schedule me to talk to a training supervisor at 8am the next day. Too fast, huge red flag, legit companies don't put people into training until their hire paperwork goes through.

The first couple of these I ran into, their web presence was inadequate. Their websites were super simple, one still had example text from a template. enemyofperfect was helping me investigate and image-googled an employee picture on one of these websites, and discovered the picture was of a guy from Zimbabwe who ran a South African communications conglomerate, not the founder of a construction company in California. When I googled street addresses, they usually didn't exist or were something else, a residence rather than a business for example. Apparently scammers are getting smarter and instead of inventing false businesses, they're just flying false flags. The last one told me they were Broadcom, a company real enough to have been in recent news for potential anti-trust violations. They gave me Broadcom's real website and real street address. But the person who wanted to interview me only gave me a google email address to contact her for the interview, and the original email's domain was for a small print shop with a really super basic website (....uh-huh), and no affiliation with Broadcom. The switch on what company was offering me a job was a red flag in and of itself, and it was an additional red flag that the person did not use an email address associated with the company that verifiably existed, that they supposedly represented.

Hoping by writing this all out I can save fellow job-seekers some trouble, and help myself formulate a checklist I can use to nope out of this shit without expending too much effort on it.

Current Mood: annoyed

clicked on a show called Wayward Pines on Hulu, m night shyamalan's name came up in the credits so i googled it to figure out how much of a chance I wanted to give it. premise: govt agent wakes up after a car accident in a town in the middle of nowhere, can't manage contact with the outside world, people behave very fishily, what is even up. apparently according to wiki when shyamalan signed his only condition was that they weren't all dead. like. m night shyamalan was like "don't make it a stupid twist" I don't even know what to think about that.

so one episode in we have: every character is potentially an unreliable narrator (constantly contradict each other and also multiple characters openly say "they're watching", "they're trying to break your mind", etc) including the protagonist (flashbacks about talking to a psych about how he's totally past the hallucinations)(but i am sort of throwing out "he dreamed it all" for the same reason "they're all dead" is out, it's a stupid twist), there may be something strange with time depending on how unreliable various characters are (one claims to have been here 1 year since 1999, in protagonist's 2014; another says she has been there 12 years, where the protagonist saw her in the outside world 5 weeks prior, but also there's shit like rotary phones bc why not), protagonist's boss may have signed him up for whatever the fuck this is (shown asking to call it off if not too late, of a creepy doctor seen in a hospital on the inside; this isn't protagonist POV scene, he's not present, so either we take it as true within the story or start assuming that the camera is lying to us too??), and there's a giant electrified fence between wayward pines and the rest of the world.

so far one of my biggest questions is logistical. If wayward pines is held completely self-contained inside the big fence wall (aside from occasional new inmates), is all food grown/herded locally? like that's less insane in bumfuck idaho than some places, but in general most places in the US at this point in time rely pretty heavily on trade with other places, on different foods being shipped in from wherever the fuck they're cheapest grown, on technology constructed on other continents. Gasoline, gasoline gets trucked into places and most cars don't run without it. Most fabric comes from textile industry, like even if there's people sewing their own clothes from McCall patterns all over creepy town, is there a textile mill or where the fuck are they getting the fabric?

basically how do you both cut off a place from outside trade and maintain any illusion that it's just like anywhere else, your calls are just going to voicemail how weird? is the answer regular supply drops? i kind of want regular supply drops. fresh fruit and the latest items out of the JC Penney's catalog drop out of the sky on main street every week.

the other thing I'm wondering about is protagonist's boss. see, protagonist was sent with another agent to creepy town, and in the inciting car accident, other agent died. this information is given in both creepy town and the real world scenes, so I'm tending to accept that there really was a dude who died. Did boss mean for other agent to die, or was he trying to send them both to creepy town, or is there some other elaborate explanation?

basically i'm prepared to be like 90% disappointed by whatever the hell the show is going to claim is going on, like way too much is going to be waved away by whatever conspiracy is central and some of the weirder things never acknowledged, I'm pretty sure. but it's a short series i'll probably watch it all in the next two days.

it will probably not surprise anyone who knows me well to hear i have had another root canal

ok i have 2 job interviews tomorrow and another on Monday. fffffff. I need to dye my streaks in tonight. I need to print off a few more copies of my resume to take with me. i need to take a chill pill--both now AND tomorrow I think. I have selected clothing and laid it out. I should spend some time reviewing the wanted ads.

what else

take a nap maybe omg

Current Mood: chicken, circles, etc

In recent months I have gone from being able to wear underwire bras for a few hours to rarely being able to wear underwire bras at all. I have many lovely colorful underwire bras that have not seen much wear, and I am hoping some of you might be interested in buying some of them, as I am broke and still looking for a job.

Sized 42G/44F, exciting teals and magentas and also some standard beiges and blacks, all with underwire of course, some padded, some unlined/mesh.

I am requesting $17 for one bra, $12 each for any subsequent bras, no shipping charge in the US lower 48 (I can look into shipping costs elsewhere if desired). These were all around $50 when brand new, so this is a steal!

Images below the cut. ( Bras! Bras! Bras! )

I very rarely if ever have the patience to make my own pie crusts, but I also usually dislike storebought ones (pilsbury, usually is what i can find) to the extent of why did I even bother to give this thing a crust?

but I have discovered that I actually like trader joe's house brand pre-made frozen pie crusts. The main flavor difference is that down in the bottom of of the ingredients, just before salt, is sugar. strangely, I suppose, I think a sweet pie should have an at least moderately sweet crust? texturally and/or digestively, when reading ingredients to figure out what the difference, it turns out pilsbury uses xanthan gum. so much for them.

This was in Club Vivid, and it is very silly.

vid: UFO
vidder:

jmtorres
fandom: Home, AKA The True Meaning of Smek Day, the Movie
song: UFO Has Landed In the Ghetto by Ry Cooder
format: mp4, 39MB
runtime: 2:32
link: http://houseoftorres.dreamhosters.com/vids/jmt-home(smekday)-UFOhaslanded.mp4 (link updated 9 March 2019)
warnings: I can't think of any, there's a couple of explosions but it's an animated kids movie, they're not exactly graphic.

I've been listening to an audiobook of Audre Lorde's Sister Outsider, and having a lot of feelings about a lot of things. ( a white person's thoughts on anti-black racism in America )

Current Mood: contemplative

today I am crying over the lives of fictional characters

4/26, 5/19, 6/14, pretty sure this is period; except I'm a few days ahead of the placebo days. If I'm counting this right my body is doing something like a 25 day cycle, which is not that weird, just also not what one expects hormone pills to enforce? And also why I'm offset from the placebos.

I mean let us not forget that every kind of stress has rained down upon my head the last two months, and that will fuck with periods too, but GDI.

Eta: also I would like to note that it is a million times less stressful to be crying about fictional characters than about your cat's health or a sudden inspection for a move. Hooray for fictional characters.

Last call for cheap books, kind of an eclectic lot, Shakespeare and Beatles and random SFF anthologies. Most of these are pretty well used, cover wear, etc. Let me know your zip code and I'll calculate media rate shipping from that and book weight.

Let me know before Friday night if you want any of these, because on Saturday they're going to Good Will.

For the Shakespeare, I am including publisher/edition for those who care; most of them are perfectly readable modern editions but I feel I should note that the "new hudson" editions were printed circa 1910 and while they have the same kinds of notes I tend to expect, they are visibly old. Merrills is 1910 as well, and Arden is good gracious, 1898.

Hardcover - $2
Skywalking: the life and films of George Lucas by Dale Pollock (1983, so no current or prequels)
Aliens from Analog (anthology, contents)
Reel Future (anthology, contents)
Pendragon Chronicles (anthology, contents)
Hal Leonard Guitar Method, books 1-3 (this is actually comb bound not hardcover, but it also includes CDs, so I'm tossing it in this list for pricing.)
America, the book, from the Daily Show with Jon Stewart
I Me Mine by George Harrison
Paul McCartney: Many Years From Now by Barry Miles
Blackbird: The Life and Times of Paul McCartney by Geoffrey Giuliano
McCartney: The Definitive Biography by Chris Salewicz
The Baby Train and Other Lusty Urban Legends by Jan Harold Brunvand

Trade Paperback (or larger) - $1.50
Save the cat! The Last Book on Screenwriting you'll ever need by Blake Snyder
How to Write for Television by Madeline DiMaggio
Writing Scripts Hollywood Will Love by Katherine Atwell Herbert
Science Fiction: a historical anthology (contents)
Henry the Fourth, Part I, Shakespeare, Norton
King Lear, Shakespeare, Kittredge
Hamlet, Shakespeare, St Martin's Case Studies in Contemporary Criticism
Classical Mythology by Mark Morford and Robert Lenardon
Completely MAD: A History of the Comic Book and Magazine
MAD about the Eighties: the best of the decade
MAD about the Seventies: the best of the decade
MAD about the Sixties: the best of the decade
MAD about the Movies
The Birth of the Beatles by Sam Leach
Brothel: Mustang Ranch and its Women by Alexa Albert
Dante, the Divine Comedy, Inferno, Italian, English translation by John Sinclair
Star Trek: Q's Guide to the Continuum
Cowboy Slang by Edgar R. "Frosty" Potter
All I really need to know I learned from watching Star Trek by Dave marinaccio
Quotable Star Trek by Jill Sherwin

Paperbacks - $1
Teach Yourself Film Studies by Warren Buckland
Twelfth Night, Shakespeare, signet
Othello, Shakespeare, folger
Tempest, Shakespeare, new hudson
Romeo and Juliet, Shakespeare, folger
Anthony and Cleopatra, Shakespeare, Kittredge
As You Like It, Shakespeare, new hudson
Merchant of Venice, Shakespeare, Arden
Julius Caesar, Shakespeare, Merrill's
Macbeth, Shakespeare, folger
Midsummer night's dream, Shakespeare, folger
Much Ado About Nothing, Shakespeare, folger
Taming of the Shrew, Shakespeare, bantam
Titus Andronicus, Shakespeare, signet
Second Shepherd's play
The Fantastic Adventures of Robin Hood (anthology, contents)
Isaac Asimov's Magical Worlds of Fantasy: Curses (anthology, contents)
Isaac Asimov's Magical Worlds of Fantasy: Ghosts (anthology, contents)
50 Short Science Fiction Tales (anthology, and with nothing so tidy as a table of contents, here's the list of reprint permissions)
UFOs: A Manual for the Millennium by Phil Cousineau
Anne Frank's Tales From the Secret Annex
Dutchman and the Slave: Two Plays by LeRoi Jones
House of Desires in a new translation by Catherine Boyle
The Skin of Our Teeth by Thornton Wilder
Our Town by Thornton Wilder
Everyman and Medieval Miracle Plays
Life is a Dream, Calderon
Beowulf, trans Burton Raffel
I Owe Russian $1200 by Bob Hope (resisting urge to make political joke here)
Strange and Amazing Facts About Star Trek by Daniel Cohen
Separated at Birth? (Meme of a bygone era, this is a collection of photographs of celebrities that look like other celebrities)

Continuing to cull my library as I pack and also running in circles screaming because everything, moving stress, and my ongoing lack of job

Anyway, if you want any of these, prices listed + media rate shipping (let me know your zip code and I'll weigh books and tell you how much).

Trade paperbacks and hard backs, $3 ea
Dracula by Bram Stoker + 70 pages of appendices
High Wizardry by Diane Duane

Regular size paperbacks, $2 ea
Gulliver's Travels by Jonathan Swift
The Magic Christian by Terry Southern
Number the Stars by Lois Lowry
Deep Wizardry by Diane Duane
So You Want To Be A Wizard by Diane Duane
To Kill A Mockingbird by Harper Lee
Brave New World by Aldous Huxley

Chronicles of Narnia by CS Lewis, box set of paperbacks: $10
(hey, tell you what, if anyone wants all three of the Duane young wizards books, $5 for the set)

Also, stuff still available on my last fannish yard sale entry with lower prices

Hey everyone clearing my bookshelves a bit, combination moving in a month and I want to move less, and a few bucks would be nice. I'm in CA, so I will calculate your shipping at media rate from there, and like, I will ship beyond the contiguous 48? But I'm pretty sure it will be exorbitantly expensive, so? Up to you? But yeah, cheap books, a few cheap DVDs, prices listed below, let me know what you want and your zip code so I can let you know how much shipping is. (In a couple of days. After I finish visiting

niqaeli.)

Paperbacks: used books, cover wear, etc. $2 each.
Contact by Carl Sagan
The Adventures of the Stainless Steel Rat by Harry Harrison (omnibus, books 1-3)
The Stainless Steel Rat Gets Drafted by Harry Harrison
The Stainless Steel Rat Wants You! by Harry Harrison
A Stainless Steel Rat is Born by Harry Harrison
2010 by Arthur C Clarke
3001 by Arthur C Clarke
The Godfather by Mario Puzo
Children of the Night by Dan Simmons
The Defector by Evelyn Anthony
~~All Quiet on the Western Front by Erich Maria Remarque~~
Son of a Witch by Gregory Maguire

Manga books: these are in very good condition,
My Cat Loki, volumes 1 and 2, by Bettina Kurkoski $3 for both
Planet Ladder, volumes 1 to 3, by Yuri Narushima $5 for all 3

Trade Paperbacks: good condition, $3
The Time Traveler's Wife by Audrey Neffenegger
Wicked by Gregory Maguire
~~The Great Book of Amber (omnibus, vols 1-10) by Roger Zelazny~~

Hardcover: $3 each, only the last one has a dust jacket
Endymion by Dan Simmons
Magic Kingdom for Sale--Sold! by Terry Brooks
~~Stainless Steel Rat for President by Harry Harrison~~
Darwin Awards by Wendy Northcutt

DVDs: $7 each
The Illusionist
Martian Child
Hurt Locker
Clue
Some Like It Hot

Audiobook on CDs: I dunno, $3?
Behind the Canvas by Alexander Vance

ETA: or like, make me an offer?
ETA: prices lowered 5/17

collecting sg vids to show my brother, am hitting some walls with imeem links now all go to myspace and youtube stuff is frequently DMCA'd and megaupload does not exist anymore.

anyway, stuff I totally want to show him and haven't found and would be super grateful if someone knew something I didn't like where the vidder went after abandoning LJ 6 years ago...

Codemonkey (McKay/Zelinka) by

mousewrites and snarkitty (showed in 2007 vvc as non-premiere)

Teal'c, PI and Boom-de-yada by

nibikko

Welcome Home by

permetaform

Hey, do you guys have any fave Stargate vids? SG-1 or Atlantis, not picky. Or even the like, movie.

I'm teaching my brother how to vid, and he wants to make a Stargate vid, and I figured one of the things I should do is introduce him to the extant fannish vidding culture and also it'd be fun just have a vid watching party.

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