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Jun. 10th, 2019 03:32 amheadache today, which fortunately waited until after I was done with homework to descend. It feel sinusy? except the parts where it also flashes into my scalp and the hinge of jaw sometimes? a little bit migrainey, noises and the sun were not helping it. nsaid didn't do much about it. suspect it is a rexulti withdrawal headache, despite my desire to attribute it to other things I could more immediately treat.
now that I have high hopes of getting an A in the class, I am having some of the old anxiety about the subjective part of the points, ie the discussion questions. the prof gave me full points on the last discussion question so I felt like I had to Live Up to Expectations or something? that was getting in the way of me working on it at all. I had to remind myself that it is okay to half-ass stuff, half-assing an assignment is better than not doing it, it's okay if I don't get full points on this discussion question, it might not even prevent me from getting an A if my test scores stay high.
it's after two in the morning which is about when I've been getting the sleep the last few days--last night I tried to go down at midnight but belched with GERD for three hours. Mind you now that I'm trying to write an entry I'm yawning my face off. I would like to shift my sleep schedule back so I could have actual mornings, but I am relieved that the current trend is ~8 hours a night instead of the 11ish when I was taking rexulti or the the like, 17 from a few bad days of the withdrawal.
I have an Audible account and enjoy listening to audiobooks, but I have a bad habit of buying a bunch of things during sales and then not listening to them until almost the end of the return period, which is a year. So right now I'm trying out a bunch of titles I bought last June and groaning to myself over my sale lots from july and august as well.
Stuff I've chucked back:
--The House of the Spirits, Isabelle Allende. When I bought this I had just binged all of Jane the Virgin, but I'm not longer in that fannish headspace? Because it's a year later. I did listen to about ten minutes or so to see if it would grab me, but it did not, and also had mention of someone in a cage encrusted in his own filth within that first ten minutes, and even assuming things would get better for that character, that just... wasn't quite working for me.
--The Stars my Destination, Alfred Bester. I knew very little about this but I occasionally expose myself to classic sci-fi just because, like, roots? This edition had a forward talking about the history of science fiction and how it ages, by Neil Gaiman I'm pretty sure they said, and the forward referred to the protagonist of this book as a predator, a killer and a rapist. Welp, that's very clear, thank you for the warning label, I said, and noped out.
--Existence, David Brin. I actually listened to several hours of this while driving to Phoenix recently, and I wasn't originally going to chuck it because nothing about it bothered me, but I also realized nothing about it grabbed me, either? There were it seemed like a dozen viewpoint characters and I didn't care about any of them, so.
--Somebody Tell Aunt Tillie She's Dead, Christiana Miller. I listened to the first few chapters and was super uncomfortable with how rac(ism) played in a confrontation between the white wicca protagonist and her latina Catholic landlady. Also the best friend was kind of painfully stereotypically flamboyantly gay.
--annnnnnnd safari ate half the entry because I went out to twitter to find a link so the rest of this is going to be much more abbreviated than it was before.
--The Invisible Library, Genevieve Cogman. I disliked the narrator, who made it sound as if every sentence ended with three exclamation marks, but I enjoyed the book when I checked out a hard copy from the library.
Stuff I'm keeping:
--The Golem and the Jinni, Helene Wecker. Rocky start, as before the Golem became conscious our viewpoint character was the creep who wanted to buy a golem for a wife, but he died very immediately and now she's a free golem with no master to give her orders, and I am excited to find out what happens to her next.
--The Light Brigade, Kameron Hurley. I am a sucker for time travel stuff and this loops interestingly. The final piece of causality I did not see coming, but it fit neatly.
--Fortune's Rising, Sara King. I only listened to maybe half an hour of this, but I liked the scifi premise it set up, colony world finds brain-enhancing drug, suddenly their entire economy is producing the drug and sending it back home.
--Nevermoor: The Trials of Morrigan Crow, Jessica Townsend. I listened to the whole book and bought the sequel because I couldn't put it down. 11-yr-old protagonist but apparently coming of age/kid's adventure is still a favorite genre of mine.
--The Traitor Baru Cormorant, Seth Dickinson
--The Book of the Unnamed Midwife, Meg Elison. Apocafic with plenty of dark stuff but like, queer characters EVERYWHERE. the narrator is gender-nonconforming and bisexual. I bought the sequel.
Stuff I need to listen to soonish:
--Servant of the Underworld, Aliette de Bodard--Aztec murder mystery if I recall correctly.
--Cold Magic, Kate Elliott. this one and the de Bodard were recced to me when I asked twitter for alternate history novels where Native Americans/First Nations peoples weren't colonized but were instead political players among world governments.
--Apocalypse Nyx, Kameron Hurley--I think this is short stories in the Bel Dame Apocrypha universe.
--A Perilous Undertaking, Deanna Raybourn. Sequel to A Curious Beginning, which I liked--a young Victorian lady figures out the socially acceptable way for her to Do Science and Travel and stuff is to study butterflies. There's also political intrigue.
--The Sparrow, Mary Doria Russell
--Grass, Sheri Tepper
--Dreamer's Pool, Juliet Marillier
--Tooth and Claw, Jo Walton
--Graveyard Book, Neil Gaiman
--Android's Dream, John Scalzi
--Fuzzy Nation, John Scalzi
--Agent to the Stars, John Scalzi there was a sale okay. I recognize I'm going to have to figure out how much I actually like John Scalzi in the next couple of months.
--Imajica, Clive Barker
--Soulless, Gail Carriger
--Broken Monsters, Lauren Beukes
--Vicious, VE Schwab
That's the list through September anyway. Tell me what I should listen to soonest (after I finish the ones I'm in progress on).
now that I have high hopes of getting an A in the class, I am having some of the old anxiety about the subjective part of the points, ie the discussion questions. the prof gave me full points on the last discussion question so I felt like I had to Live Up to Expectations or something? that was getting in the way of me working on it at all. I had to remind myself that it is okay to half-ass stuff, half-assing an assignment is better than not doing it, it's okay if I don't get full points on this discussion question, it might not even prevent me from getting an A if my test scores stay high.
it's after two in the morning which is about when I've been getting the sleep the last few days--last night I tried to go down at midnight but belched with GERD for three hours. Mind you now that I'm trying to write an entry I'm yawning my face off. I would like to shift my sleep schedule back so I could have actual mornings, but I am relieved that the current trend is ~8 hours a night instead of the 11ish when I was taking rexulti or the the like, 17 from a few bad days of the withdrawal.
I have an Audible account and enjoy listening to audiobooks, but I have a bad habit of buying a bunch of things during sales and then not listening to them until almost the end of the return period, which is a year. So right now I'm trying out a bunch of titles I bought last June and groaning to myself over my sale lots from july and august as well.
Stuff I've chucked back:
--The House of the Spirits, Isabelle Allende. When I bought this I had just binged all of Jane the Virgin, but I'm not longer in that fannish headspace? Because it's a year later. I did listen to about ten minutes or so to see if it would grab me, but it did not, and also had mention of someone in a cage encrusted in his own filth within that first ten minutes, and even assuming things would get better for that character, that just... wasn't quite working for me.
--The Stars my Destination, Alfred Bester. I knew very little about this but I occasionally expose myself to classic sci-fi just because, like, roots? This edition had a forward talking about the history of science fiction and how it ages, by Neil Gaiman I'm pretty sure they said, and the forward referred to the protagonist of this book as a predator, a killer and a rapist. Welp, that's very clear, thank you for the warning label, I said, and noped out.
--Existence, David Brin. I actually listened to several hours of this while driving to Phoenix recently, and I wasn't originally going to chuck it because nothing about it bothered me, but I also realized nothing about it grabbed me, either? There were it seemed like a dozen viewpoint characters and I didn't care about any of them, so.
--Somebody Tell Aunt Tillie She's Dead, Christiana Miller. I listened to the first few chapters and was super uncomfortable with how rac(ism) played in a confrontation between the white wicca protagonist and her latina Catholic landlady. Also the best friend was kind of painfully stereotypically flamboyantly gay.
--annnnnnnd safari ate half the entry because I went out to twitter to find a link so the rest of this is going to be much more abbreviated than it was before.
--The Invisible Library, Genevieve Cogman. I disliked the narrator, who made it sound as if every sentence ended with three exclamation marks, but I enjoyed the book when I checked out a hard copy from the library.
Stuff I'm keeping:
--The Golem and the Jinni, Helene Wecker. Rocky start, as before the Golem became conscious our viewpoint character was the creep who wanted to buy a golem for a wife, but he died very immediately and now she's a free golem with no master to give her orders, and I am excited to find out what happens to her next.
--The Light Brigade, Kameron Hurley. I am a sucker for time travel stuff and this loops interestingly. The final piece of causality I did not see coming, but it fit neatly.
--Fortune's Rising, Sara King. I only listened to maybe half an hour of this, but I liked the scifi premise it set up, colony world finds brain-enhancing drug, suddenly their entire economy is producing the drug and sending it back home.
--Nevermoor: The Trials of Morrigan Crow, Jessica Townsend. I listened to the whole book and bought the sequel because I couldn't put it down. 11-yr-old protagonist but apparently coming of age/kid's adventure is still a favorite genre of mine.
--The Traitor Baru Cormorant, Seth Dickinson
--The Book of the Unnamed Midwife, Meg Elison. Apocafic with plenty of dark stuff but like, queer characters EVERYWHERE. the narrator is gender-nonconforming and bisexual. I bought the sequel.
Stuff I need to listen to soonish:
--Servant of the Underworld, Aliette de Bodard--Aztec murder mystery if I recall correctly.
--Cold Magic, Kate Elliott. this one and the de Bodard were recced to me when I asked twitter for alternate history novels where Native Americans/First Nations peoples weren't colonized but were instead political players among world governments.
--Apocalypse Nyx, Kameron Hurley--I think this is short stories in the Bel Dame Apocrypha universe.
--A Perilous Undertaking, Deanna Raybourn. Sequel to A Curious Beginning, which I liked--a young Victorian lady figures out the socially acceptable way for her to Do Science and Travel and stuff is to study butterflies. There's also political intrigue.
--The Sparrow, Mary Doria Russell
--Grass, Sheri Tepper
--Dreamer's Pool, Juliet Marillier
--Tooth and Claw, Jo Walton
--Graveyard Book, Neil Gaiman
--Android's Dream, John Scalzi
--Fuzzy Nation, John Scalzi
--Agent to the Stars, John Scalzi there was a sale okay. I recognize I'm going to have to figure out how much I actually like John Scalzi in the next couple of months.
--Imajica, Clive Barker
--Soulless, Gail Carriger
--Broken Monsters, Lauren Beukes
--Vicious, VE Schwab
That's the list through September anyway. Tell me what I should listen to soonest (after I finish the ones I'm in progress on).
