Off the prompt "cuddles."

So uh, this is only one part of the longer saga Will thinks he's getting me to tell but I figured I'd go ahead and post it since it's complete as a scene and frankly it's been a few months since I've been able to write on it (it would perhaps help if instead of giving me angst and woe and sturm und drang Will could come up with more porn).

Title: Submission Impossible
Author: jmtorres
Fandom: Mission Impossible: Ghost Protocol
Rating: Mature? I went with Mature. I was torn.

Summary: Ethan's got a sub on his hands who's about to go into shock if he doesn't get dominated. One burning question: who the hell let a sub be chief analyst of the IMF?

Inspired by this prompt on the ghotocol kinkmeme.

the full tag set I posted to AO3 (part informative, part hilarious): Alternate Universe - BDSM, Miswire-verse, I'm really sorry, BDSM pon farr, can I just claim niqaeli made me do it, or at least encouraged me shamelessly, also I'm sorry for the title, I don't think I can blame niqaeli for that one though, inappropriate uses of children's movies, safewords that only make sense if you saw MI:III, also what the fuck is wrong with the IMF, seriously how are there so many moles, if you only watched Ghost Protocol some background: all the other MI films have IMF traitors, some serious internal agency problems is what I'm saying, PS if this hits fuckyeahweirdtags feel free to leave the identifying info attached, I am okay with being known for ridiculous tags, I am at peace with the what the fuck I have written, I mean it only took me four months to get off my ass and post it but what the hell, I am apparently a person who uses ao3 tags like tumblr tags now

eta: It was pointed out to me that these tags may be misleading in terms of suggesting this fic is intended as comedy. It is not intended as comedy. It is a ridiculous concept I mock myself for investing in that I have taken deadly seriously. (I mean, it's not without humor. But a comedy it's not.)/eta

AO3 link

( or you can read it here )

I hate writing porn.

"Hate" is probably a strong word.

I have enormous SHAME writing porn. I can point out my shame and laugh at my shame and I still experience it so writing porn is difficult, and getting porn beta'd is difficult and cringe-inducing and I had to hide under the comforter a couple of times, and I think probably posting porn is going to be difficult, and I'm just going to come out and say this, if this hits the kind of word counts I'm predicting (I just wrote 3K on what I sincerely hope is MOST of one porn scene! and there are like a good dozen at least in this story, fuck my life, I really think I was not underestimating when I clocked it at 40K based on the plot summary in my head) I really want you all to PROMISE ME that you won't think of me as 'the girl who wrote the D/s porn epic about Tony and Steve.' PROMISE ME.

Also I wrote 3K about a blowjob without using the word "cock" but that was a stylistic choice related to the ridiculous contest and not because of the weird interaction of my dykitude and my desire to draw hearts all over Steve. Why do you ask.

But I just wrote 3K in a couple of days, which is more than I've written in ages, and I keep having ideas, and I'm excited about this story, and not just because I'll be in my bunk, and I had to get through work today by promising myself I could go directly home and write more porn, and.

*FLAIL*

YAY. HORROR. Are my competing reactions to this.

Also, ongoing sadness that I'm having to shield my braintwin from it because, um, either the assholery of Tony Stark is something she's not up to or it's a ridiculous BDSM AU with soul bonds and I don't blame her for disowning me. One of the two. Or possibly both. Did I mention she usually writes the porn in my stories? PORN IS HAAAAAARD.

YAY. HORROR. SADNESS. PORN.