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I hate writing porn.
"Hate" is probably a strong word.
I have enormous SHAME writing porn. I can point out my shame and laugh at my shame and I still experience it so writing porn is difficult, and getting porn beta'd is difficult and cringe-inducing and I had to hide under the comforter a couple of times, and I think probably posting porn is going to be difficult, and I'm just going to come out and say this, if this hits the kind of word counts I'm predicting (I just wrote 3K on what I sincerely hope is MOST of one porn scene! and there are like a good dozen at least in this story, fuck my life, I really think I was not underestimating when I clocked it at 40K based on the plot summary in my head) I really want you all to PROMISE ME that you won't think of me as 'the girl who wrote the D/s porn epic about Tony and Steve.' PROMISE ME.
Also I wrote 3K about a blowjob without using the word "cock" but that was a stylistic choice related to the ridiculous contest and not because of the weird interaction of my dykitude and my desire to draw hearts all over Steve. Why do you ask.
But I just wrote 3K in a couple of days, which is more than I've written in ages, and I keep having ideas, and I'm excited about this story, and not just because I'll be in my bunk, and I had to get through work today by promising myself I could go directly home and write more porn, and.
*FLAIL*
YAY. HORROR. Are my competing reactions to this.
Also, ongoing sadness that I'm having to shield my braintwin from it because, um, either the assholery of Tony Stark is something she's not up to or it's a ridiculous BDSM AU with soul bonds and I don't blame her for disowning me. One of the two. Or possibly both. Did I mention she usually writes the porn in my stories? PORN IS HAAAAAARD.
YAY. HORROR. SADNESS. PORN.
"Hate" is probably a strong word.
I have enormous SHAME writing porn. I can point out my shame and laugh at my shame and I still experience it so writing porn is difficult, and getting porn beta'd is difficult and cringe-inducing and I had to hide under the comforter a couple of times, and I think probably posting porn is going to be difficult, and I'm just going to come out and say this, if this hits the kind of word counts I'm predicting (I just wrote 3K on what I sincerely hope is MOST of one porn scene! and there are like a good dozen at least in this story, fuck my life, I really think I was not underestimating when I clocked it at 40K based on the plot summary in my head) I really want you all to PROMISE ME that you won't think of me as 'the girl who wrote the D/s porn epic about Tony and Steve.' PROMISE ME.
Also I wrote 3K about a blowjob without using the word "cock" but that was a stylistic choice related to the ridiculous contest and not because of the weird interaction of my dykitude and my desire to draw hearts all over Steve. Why do you ask.
But I just wrote 3K in a couple of days, which is more than I've written in ages, and I keep having ideas, and I'm excited about this story, and not just because I'll be in my bunk, and I had to get through work today by promising myself I could go directly home and write more porn, and.
*FLAIL*
YAY. HORROR. Are my competing reactions to this.
Also, ongoing sadness that I'm having to shield my braintwin from it because, um, either the assholery of Tony Stark is something she's not up to or it's a ridiculous BDSM AU with soul bonds and I don't blame her for disowning me. One of the two. Or possibly both. Did I mention she usually writes the porn in my stories? PORN IS HAAAAAARD.
YAY. HORROR. SADNESS. PORN.
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But - you got writing done! You wrote porn! I'd say that deserves a cheering section.
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Fingers crossed for sexy!
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Also I wrote 3K about a blowjob without using the word "cock" but that was a stylistic choice related to the ridiculous contest and not because of the weird interaction of my dykitude and my desire to draw hearts all over Steve. Why do you ask.
You have no idea the level of joy this sentence brings me. NO IDEA.
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You have no idea the level of joy this sentence brings me. NO IDEA.
Just. His face! *flail* I don't even.
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Just sharing.
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I was searching for sub!Steve and found your description of this fic you're writing - have you posted any of it anywhere? It sounds purrfect.... :)
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