jmtorres: movieverse Steve Rogers with dorky grin. Text: The future is awesome! Who else is a robot? (steve rogers)
Scribbled out another 646 words of Darcy and Loki fic. I have almost gotten to the punchline of the first scene. At about 1600 words of scene. (Total wordcount for the entire file, mostly outline: 9146. AND THAT IS ONLY FOR THE CON FIC, NOT THE WEDDING FIC.) Whyyyyy.

small teaser )

Also, I edited a cut of the song I'm vidding for (hopefully, if I get it done in time) Escapade. Yay! Cut it down from 3:17 to 2:24 and I think it works, it's tight, it doesn't leave me too much room to flail around and cry about how I'm vidding from trailers instead of a whole movie. (Oh my god, can we sync up AO3 and reality and cause the Avengers movie to already be out, SERIOUSLY.) And I think it sounds good!

I nearly went to go see Cap at the dollar theatre again for... focus. (Since you know, I have the DVD. But the theatre is something else.) I didn't because my head is a mess and I didn't feel like dealing with pure, unadulterated Steve. Augh, I wish I didn't have such a complicated relationship with characters, sometimes.

...I need a Darcy icon.
jmtorres: movieverse Steve Rogers with dorky grin. Text: The future is awesome! Who else is a robot? (steve rogers)
So the other day Steve tweaked me about something, and I said, whoa, wait, what?

For the longest time, Ivan Vorpatril has been the only character in my head who's had enough independence to have his own opinions, and notice and respond to me, and it was largely a function of what his personality is--he's a slinker, so what I noticed was he kept trying to slink off and hide from me. That and the intelligence.

The Steve in my head has apparently woken up enough to have... similar independence. And I didn't notice for the longest time because he didn't try to slink off--but that's not who he is. He's nice! He's a sweetie. Unlike Ivan, he doesn't hate me. So I didn't notice that his compliance wasn't the moldable plasticity of the ordinary kind of character I shape until he got comfortable enough to drop his sense of humor on me. It's subtle! Kind of wry. Usually self-deprecating. Except if he knows you well enough he'll nudge you the way he'd nudge himself. (See also: "Don't do anything stupid until I get back" "How can I? You're taking all the stupid with you.")

Seriously, most of my characters don't talk back! And Steve doesn't really do backtalk, but, he's decided he's hung out in my head long enough to start teasing me for my foibles. So that's apparently a thing now.

*laugh* I was talking to [personal profile] niqaeli about it and the differences between how the Steve in my head and the Ivan in my head behave towards me, and we rapidly concluded that no shit Ivan runs for the hills when he can and Steve doesn't feel the need--we do hilariously awful things to Ivan because we delight in watching him squirm, whereas we do cute, fun things to Steve because he grins like a loon and it's fantastic. This icon, this icon is TOTALLY the world I keep writing for Steve. The future is awesome! I keep introducing him to interesting people. Some of them are robots! Or centaurs! Or his soulmate! Why exactly would he run away?

Somewhere in my head Ivan is sulking, because there's a new chewtoy as independent as he is, who has somehow drawn a better lot in plot bunnies and has no interest in coming to hide in a corner with him.

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