jmtorres | Oh my god

I cannot fix all the badfic and I should tamp down hard on the desire to TRY. Like, that one wasn't even badly written, it just could have been more interesting with a slightly different premise, and it was off a kinkmeme so you fill what you get asked, I get that.

AND I DID NOT NEED SLAVE!TONY IN MY HEAD ASKING FOR A BETTER STORY FML

ETA: Other things that freak me out about fanfiction: horrifying Tony with Steve/Howard. And like, the weird thing is, I'm pretty sure, based on the whole Carter legacy, that if Steve had slept with Howard it would turn him into an obsessed creepface about Tony, but I don't get the sense that fandom is drawing that parallel, I think fandom is just having its own personal id all over everything creepface issues. (I SAY THIS WITH LOVE. I AM NOT JUDGING YOUR CREEPFACE. MUCH.)

On the other hand, I think it would be really hilarious to horrify STEVE with Tony knowing about Steve/Howard. It was just one of those things--Dad bagged Captain America. (I am imagining Tony got told as a teenager when he started sleeping with boys and Howard was like "You think this is a rebellion? Let me tell you about my boyfriends, trust me, you're not rebelling against anything here," and frankly, Steve is HORRIFIED that the tale of their LOVE got used this way. Tony is like, "Whatever, I was pretty horrible as a teenager, I probably deserved it." Ahahaha, oh Tony, as a teenager you were horrible. Yes.)

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Ah, okay! I'll write something up to post maybe tomorrow, then, I think I am probably ready to be thick-skinned about this particular issue.

...you were around for that meta kerfuffle years ago about how all slashers are queer because writing slash is a sexual act, weren't you? Because on the one hand, no, we are talking about a bad Steve/Tony AU, it is not the same thing, but on the other hand, it is all a continuum, and also we are digging deep into our vulnerable places, and sharing them, when we do this, that's why these issues keep coming up.

...and I see, that explains it. When I ran out of first-run Steve/Tony recently I decided for some reason to instead start re-reading all of the Eroica fic on AO3. In chronological order, starting with the ones that were written in the 90s. And speaking of OMG THE CONSENT PROBLEMS. :P Either my memory has gone all rosy, or I really have gotten accustomed to much better treatment of this stuff in only the past three or four years since the last time I did that.

I don't recall that meta kerfuffle. I may have eyerolled and given it a miss, because I am queer? But I mean, for me fanfiction is totally a political act, and my identity is at least partly a political thing, but you know, mostly I'm queer because women: I am attracted to them. And I hear that not all slash writers feel that way. So what's true for me is not necessarily true for them. Like, a straight woman could be interested in stories of two dudes banging because she's straight and they're dudes she's attracted to, and if her definition of her identity is straight, then she's straight. (On the other hand, I also hear that most slash fans assume we're primarily a community of straight women interested in dudes banging, just like straight dudes interested in lesbians, while a number of polls seem to indicate slash fandom contains a vast number of queer women who think we're more of a minority here than we are.)

Fannish experience: multiple.

Heh - I'm a queer man, and for me the writing of fic is never political, and I hate it when people assume it is for me. It's interesting how far apart the experiences can be.

(I have one political fic, because it's about the experiences of someone growing up in The Troubles in Belfast. At the time I noted quite strongly that it was a departure for me!)

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